KoenaThingo is lying on my chest and Mfundo is lying on my thigh. It is past midnight and we were meant to be watching movies while we wait up for Mthunzi to come home from work. He works until extremely late having to do his job and Tom’s job. I guess we all understand, but we miss having him around. I also just carry this panic in my heart every time he is not home. When I think about Lydia’s death, my...
Thomas“Semphete wena a ratehang.Mmoloki waka.Ha o ntse o sesa ba-a-bang,Semphete le nna.Jeso Jeso Ke a o rapela.Ha o ntse o sesa ba-a-bang,Semphete le nna.”I am staring at this tombstone and her picture on the funeral programme. It still has not registered to me that my wife is dead. Mrs Khalo almost fell into her grave when she had to go put sand on top of Lydia’s casket. I think she is losing her mind. Last night during the night vigil, she was literally...
"I made this for dad." Siya says as he shows me some drawing while I'm trying to dress him up for school. "It’s nice, fana." "Do you think he will like it?" "He will." "Mommy, how come he didn't raise me? Why did I have to be raised by Mbali's dad?" I'm quiet because never in a million years did I think that Siya would be calling Mthunzi "Mbali's dad." This is my fault. I thought I could have it all. Mthunzi is a good man. He raised Siya...
Luthando“Luthando, it is so late and you are sitting alone in the darkness. What’s wrong with you?” My mom walks into the TV room where I am sitting on a three-seater couch in my pyjamas, enjoying the silence and darkness of 2:30am. “Mama, I thought you were fast asleep.” “And I thought you were resting. You were complaining about a headache not too long ago.” “Yeah. But I can’t sleep a wink. My mind is all over the place.” “Let me make us some tea...
NobantuGcina has started school and there is so much peace in this house now that she is gone. She stays in res because I just know that if we got her place, Romeo would move in and their family house challenge would be resolved. That Romeo of hers has come and has paid damages for the pregnancy. I would have been okay if he never did come here because his family came in here prepared to pay lobola. I was so happy when Qaphela...
KoenaThis wedding is nice. The vibe is the one. Mthunzi and I are just not in the best of places right now. We are just very irritable with each other. Between Lydia's cousins who keep throwing themselves at him and him entertaining them and thinking it's funny, I'd rather not be here with him. Also, the bride and groom have been gone. They went to change outfits or something. We have eaten food and dessert already and there is still no...
Lydia"Lydia, what time is the Ramaru family expecting us tomorrow?" My mom asks me. "Thomas says one of his negotiators spoke to dad and they agreed that we will arrive at the Ramaru house at 10am." I tell my mom. My entire family and I have travelled to Venda for my wedding to Thomas. We have just arrived in Venda and we are all exhausted. I'm so glad that my mom, my dad, Rofhi and I were in one vehicle. We were riding in my parents' Mazarati. My dad's...
Sandile and KG are not back from their honeymoon yet. It was supposed to be a weekend. It’s been a week now. I’d be worried if KG didn’t call me to let me know that they are okay. So I have been mothering the kids and taking care of the businesses. I go to my shop to make sure that everything is great. KG appointed a supervisor, but I don’t trust her and I am not at ease without KG....
01/11/2021Dear Diary Living in Daveyton is not so bad. I am most happy for my mother. As brutal as this experience has been for her, I am happy that this happened to her. It’s 2021. No woman should be at the mercy of a man the way that my mother was with my dad. Now, my father has played God again in my mother’s life by completely removing himself from us all together – being a coward and keeping us away from visiting him in prison because he cannot...
NobantuI am preparing breakfast so that my husband, that human I gave birth to, and myself can eat before my husband and I leave for work. I don’t know what this human that I birthed gets up to when we are at work. At this point, I don’t even think she can do any worse than not making it into university then giving us a certificate with eyes instead - a baby.She comes into the kitchen as I dish up for Qaphela...
