Exams have crept up on us like a thief in the night. The year has been one hell of a ride. Zee and I are doing great and are even having sex without condoms now. Don't worry, I am on contraceptives. We have been very faithful to our studies and it has paid off very well because our semester marks are beautifully high. He likes school. He is a bit of a nerd and he will not even admit...
2010: Maboko "Listen, this weekend is the Mohale twins' 18th birthday party. I want you to come as my date", I tell her as we drive to school. "For the whole weekend?" She asks me like this is something abnormal. "Yes. The whole weekend. It's at a lodge in South Africa. In Mpumalanga." He says. "That sounds far. So you going to drive to South Africa when?" "This evening". The party is tomorrow and we will drive back on Monday. Monday is a public holiday." "Maboko,...
I just woke up in my bed alone again. I have officially ended things with Thabiso because I really do want to fix things with Khotso. But he is so distant. I don’t even know what to make of the distance anymore. He doesn’t touch me and with me having to stay away from the royal house because there is a new baby, I cannot just show up anymore and demand answers from him. He missed our doctor’s appointment...
Today is my graduation. I am graduating with my Masters of Art Cum Laude. I couldn't be more excited. My parents are here and will be driving down with us to my ceremony. I'm also heavily pregnant and I'm praying with my all that I don't go into labour during the course of today. This child has to let me walk that stage and collect my degree. That's all I ask. “Baby, what’s going on with Fikile and Khotso?” I...
Today is Khabane's favourite day of the week, Saturday. Naturally, he is sleeping in and loving it. I am in the kitchen preparing breakfast. On Saturdays, I prepare a huge breakfast for the three of us. Plus, Maboko and I are a bit touch and go lately. I'm making all his favourites as well as Khabane's favourites. I am wearing one of Maboko's oversized t-shirts and a pair of leggings. I just feel like being comfortable today and I...
The second date I am dolling up for our second date. He says I should be my most comfortable and wear the one outfit I would not mind getting dirty in. The makeup is thus minimal. I wear black gym tights and an oversized purple t-shirt. He arrives at 05H00, the exact time he told me to be ready by. After two knocks, I open for him. He is wearing long tracksuit pants and a vest. "Perfect", he says as he...
2010: When she said yes Maboko It’s been a long week since I asked Teboho to be my girlfriend and she says that she is still thinking about it. I have practically tried everything that I can think of to be romantic. Every morning, I fetch her from the township so we can hit the track together. She hates running, but she enjoys it with me. Her target for week one was 2km; I did 3km with her. It also helps...
Khotso and I have just come back from Cape Town and we are beyond exhausted. I was there for work, but decided to invite him, extend my stay and make it a holiday for just the two of us. We have not done this in a while. I am so happy that we did it. We needed it and we REALLY connected again. I was further planning to tell him about the pregnancy, but the guts were genuinely not...
My mother bought me a prayer journal. The idea is to put down my prayer points for the day, pray about the day then start the day. I like it. It gives me a good routine in the morning. If it wasn’t a gift, I’d actually gift it to Fikile because she really needs to start getting right with the Lord. Not that I am judging her for how she got pregnant, I just fear for her for when...
This place brings back so many memories. Maboko and I have definitely come a long way. In a perfect world, he would be my husband today and I would have probably given him three kids by now. But here I am, putting my son to bed in the second bedroom of a flat that we purchased together when I started working. I’m here to avoid my parents and he is here because his wife kicked him out of his...
